Everywhere

"'Cause you're everywhere to me,
When I close my eyes, it's you I see."

You're everywhere to me.
Forgetting about you isn't as easy as I thought it would be.
For two months, I've been able to keep the memories locked away, somewhere deep inside my head.
But now, when I'm purposefully trying to forget about them, they keep resurfacing.
For the first time since August, I find myself dreaming about you, missing you.
I toss and turn all night long, constantly waking up to see if you're really there.
Each and every time I awaken, I find myself alone.
Surprise surprise.
We haven't spoken in a month, and I'm just now realizing how much I miss your voice.
I miss the conversations we used to have.
I miss sitting with you in the back of Taylor's truck and just talking.
Anything and everything could be said,
We knew no boundaries.
But you've changed, I've changed.
I'm no longer the most important thing to you,
But you're still important to me.
You still have a very special piece of my heart, you have the only key.
I just want things to go back to the way they were before I fell you, before I gave you that key.
I want us to be the best friends we could have been, if only our emotions hadn't run away with us.
You and I...we could've been great, whether as just friends, or as more.
We never really had a chance though, and that isn't fair.
I hate where we've ended up.
Best friends should never end in a place where we never speak.
You're everywhere to me...
And I wish that you'd just disappear.