I'll Run

"I can see it your eyes
You're scared
All these things they force you to do aren't fair
I'm here to chase away these tears
Baby, we can chase away these fears.

Because sometimes baby
You fall on your back
But girl, you're three times the lady I'll ever have
and you know, you now it's true
This is a fight I refuse to lose.

And I'll run
Have a litle faith in me
You're scared and alone
And I'll run
This where we both break free
I'll bring you home, you home, you home.

I can hear it in your voice
You care
Let me run my fingers through your hair
I'll keep you company at night
Baby, I'm here to make this right."

85. I run when I feel like I should.
For those of you who read the 101 Things blog, number 85 definitely describes me the best.
As my friend Taylor said, it describes me in a nutshell.
When I was in Conway on Wednesday, I decided to spend some time with my Twin, Samantha Weldon. She introduced me to a band called The Cab, and the first song that I ever heard by them was called "I'll Run".
I knew that I'd like it just by the title, but it wasn't what I was expecting.
Someone was running towards someone, rather than away.
This was a new concept to me, I"ll admit it. But I really liked the song, and it reminded me of some old conversations that I'd had with my best friend, Jacob.

"I can see it in your eyes,
You're scared.
All the things they force you to do aren't fair
I'm here to chase away these tears,
Baby we can chase away these fears."
Yes, I was scared. I was scared of falling in love, of being in love, and of losing the one that I loved. I've been molested and raped, which aren't fair.  Jacob chased away the tears that I cried because of it, and he helped to chase away the nightmares.

"Because sometimes baby
You fall on your back.
But girl, you're three times the lady I'll ever have.
And you know, you know it's true.
This is a fight I refuse to lose."
I fell hard, and he caught me. He thought that I deserved better than him, and I suppose that to some that was true. I didn't want any better, and for a very long time, he refused to let me go.

"And I'll run,
Have a little faith in me.
You're scared and alone,
This is where we both break free
I'll bring you home, you home, you home."
One night, after we got in a fight, Jacob followed me through five cities, two counties, and several very dangerous, curvy roads at midnight. He was afraid that if he didn't, he would lose me forever. He made feel free, and almost like I was home when I was with him.

"I can hear it in your voice,
You care.
Let me run my fingers through your hair.
I'll keep you company at night
Baby, I'm here to make this right."
Regardless of what's between us now, he cared about me, and I could always tell. He made me feel like everything was alright, and he loved me.

I'd definitely be lying if I said that I don't miss Jacob, but I think that I've reached that stage where I'm starting to move on while not exactly letting go. I like someone else, but I'll always treasure the memories that I have of me and Jacob.
"I'll Run" by The Cab defnitely helped me realize a few things.
This song speaks to me, and it's my new favorite. My roommate is probably going to shoot me because I listen to it so much.
Thanks Twin, I'm so glad that you introduced me to it.