Daydreams.
I've been having them a lot lately, especially since I've moved to Russellville.
The object of my daydreams is still living in Cabot, an hour and a half away from me. That may not seem very far, but it is. For me at least.
It's weird going from seeing him every single day to seeing him once a month, if I'm lucky. The boy's always busy, working or in school.
More often than not lately, I find myself drifting off in close, but only consciously. Physically, I'm still wide awake, I just can't actively participate. My mind is far away from the dull confines of classrooms.
I tend to spend the majority of my days at Lake Pickthorn, laying on the levee in Jacob's arms. Another popular one is sitting in the back of Taylor's truck talking to him.
If I'm being honest, I really miss those days.
I miss being able to have conversations like that with my best friend. I miss being held by him.
All Time Low's song, "A Daydream Away", is actually very fitting to this mood of mine.
Ever since Megan and Sammi introduced me to them at the beginning of the summer, I've found at least one song for each of my moods.
Jacob is just a daydream away, no matter where I'm at or what time of day. I wouldn't really know what to say if he was actually mine again, so maybe daysdreams are the best place to keep him...
Or maybe not.
I'd be lying if I said that I'm okay with this.
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